Love That Could Have Been But Could Never Be

It’s like a title of a movie or a love song but it’s not. Seriously speaking, it really happens in real life, many of us experience it and I like myself have been in this kind of situation before. Actually, the reason why I wrote this blog is because I was move by a certain music album from a well known FM radio station from the Philippines. I can relate to this album. Feels like I was the one who collected these songs and compile it into an album. Memories of yesterday awakened from the back of my brain as I listen to their music. It really feels good and made me smile as I recall those hidden memories. It’s like a drama scene from a romantic yet tragic movie. It’s a real life experience of mine. I just want to share it to all of you.

I met this girl and fall for her

I was working in a private company when suddenly a girl of my age applied and was hired the by company. Not to exaggerate but she’s pretty, damn smart and very friendly. My girlfriend and I just broke up that time. Days pass by and I find myself getting close to her, I thought that it’s just a feeling of longing for someone, but one day I knew I already fall for her. I didn’t tell her this, I just let it pass, telling her might destroy our friendship or maybe I’m just afraid I might lose the closeness we are sharing that time.

I told her, she reacted

Months pass by, still I haven’t told her a thing or two, I only tell it to our friends. I always ask them, what will I do? Should I tell her? These questions always echo in our office when she’s not around. All of them answered me “yes” over and over. So that day I couldn’t help it. I’m a talkative man but when it comes to a situation like this I’m as shy as a bird. And so I told her. She was shock. A moment of silent, she slowly turns away but she smiles at me before she left. Hours pass by and she hasn’t talked to me after that incident. She went home early. I guess I made her angry. As the clock tick 5pm, it’s time for us to go home. I was waiting for the bus to ride home when my cell ring, so I open my cell and found a new message, the message says “meet me at mall at exactly 6pm”. So we meet up at the mall. Her face was so serious. I can’t speak. I must have swallowed my tongue, then, she turns to me and said “I like you too”. I thought I was just her joke but as I looked at her she’s so serious, her face turned red.

We knew it all along

We’re a couple now as I may say, we were so happy when we’re together. We always share a laugh, we both love movies, music and going to places. We both fall for each other. We both share our dreams to each other, having a family with 2 kids, living in a quiet, solemn place. 2 months have passed and we didn’t it notice it. One big problem arises and we knew it that this thing would happen.

Falling Apart

She has boyfriend, and I knew it from the very start. Her boyfriend notice that something’s going on at his back. So, before worst thing could happen she decided to put an end to our secret relationship. We both love each other but something’s just not right. At first I thought she would choose me before her boyfriend but I was wrong, she chooses him. We’re both sad, we both feel pain but we must end it now. Saying goodbye was not an easy thing for the both of us. One must decide who will quit the job. So she did.

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Why do we find someone only to lose them? Why everything feels so right yet so wrong? How can someone that make you happy yet makes you so sad? Being with someone we knew we couldn’t have? All of these are “love that could have been but could never be”.